...but I just need to get all this off my chest because it's majorly stressing me and putting me in a real downer mood and I don't like that. So I apologize if I sound like one of those people who constantly whines and bitches and complains about how shitty their lives are for attention (they piss me off to no end), but fffff!

Okay, so I have four out of five marks back, and they're average we'll say. I've been having issues with work and teachers and shit, and my mom is just constantly on my case about it because I'm "not doing enough" and I'm "constantly reading that trash online and writing trash" (my fic which are not trash thank you so stop bitching about things you don't understand!, and she keeps going on about my friend who just finished her first year and is like, super brilliant and was getting A's and shit. And that's great and I love her and stuff, but she keeps fucking comparing me to her and saying how she's so smart and I'll never get anywhere with my marks and how maybe I shouldn't even bother going back to university.

Seriously mom?! As if I wasn't under enough fucking pressure from you and myself before! That kind of stuff just makes me feel like fucking shit who can't do anything right and makes me wanna break down and scream. God! It's like I can't make any little mistake or anything lately without it royally pissing her off and making me feel like a worthless screw-up! I hope I suffer a mental breakdown from your words and you choke on your own guilt.


Okay... there, I think I got the worst of it out. I feel a little better now. Sorry for the pointlessness and I know it has nothing to do with this site, but I needed to get it off my chest and this was the only safe place I could vent it since my mom doesn't know about this account. Therefore, cannot find it and bitch to me about it. So yeah, just ignore this whole entry.